When I graduated High School, I weighed 250 lbs. I started on a diet rollercoaster that let me fluctuate between 205 and 250. Seven and a half years ago, I discovered a secret to losing weight! If I stopped following my stomach and desire for food, and followed Jesus and transferred my desire to Him, I lost weight. Not just a little bit, but over 100 lbs.
Then two years later, I was the thinnest I'd ever been and looked forward to reaching the single digits in clothing size for the first time in my life, post puberty. I was at the Jordan River, looking at my promised land! And just like the Isrealites, I counted the cost and was afraid to cross. I remember vividly the exact day this happened. Now I've wondered in the wilderness for six years.
What was I afraid of? I was afraid of not living a "normal" life. I thought that maybe following Jesus was just too hard, that He asked too much of me. I didn't want to be committed to Him any more. So He gave me what I wanted.
Over and over again, I tried to resume our relationship, but I just couldn't find the intimacy that we once had. The pounds packed back on no matter how much exercise or dieting I attempted. I gained back 85 of the 105 that I originally lost. Praise God that I still sat at 15 lbs less than the highest I'd been.
Now for the past month, Jesus has told me that it's time. I know that I can't loose this weight on my own. I know now that I don't even want to do it for myself anymore. I've lost 11 lbs, and I'm finding my center once more in Jesus.
If you are tired of living as a "Fat Christian" than this blog is for you. Join me as we encourage each other to press on in Faith! I'll be updating daily as I review my journal entries from 7 years ago, and sharing scriptures that God shares with me today! I hope you'll consider taking this journey with me.
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