Changing My Mind

Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is--his good, pleasing and perfect will. (Romans 12:2 NIV)

Sometimes I do my best thinking when I'm trying to fall asleep or when I'm trying to wake up. I guess it's when my conscious thought is on break and my subconscious takes over. So my inhibitions and worries take a back seat to my truer self--the part of me that wears no mask. I had a hard time sleeping late last night/early this morning, so I kept waking, looking at the clock, and then falling back to sleep. But during that time, this verse came to mind, and I can't help but feel that it's a verse that I need to anchor myself to, embrace, and remind myself of frequently.

Unfortunately I've been too conformed to my eating patterns. I eat when I'm hungry, but it seems that I'm constantly hungry, even after I've just eaten. And because of this, I've ballooned up to a weight on the scale that I'd never seen before. I've been dieting and exercising, but I have difficulty sticking with it and as a result, I keep losing and gaining back the same ten pounds over and over again for the last year or so.

But I feel like I can see the bend in the road, and it's all because of this moment and this verse. I need to change my mind. Renew it and be transformed. It's the only way. But how? During this reflection on scripture, I determined that what I need to change my mind about is hunger. It's not as unpleasant a feeling as my eating pattern would make me believe. I need to embrace it as proof of my control and the conquering of my flesh. 

Hunger's not so bad. It's a good thing. It's a sign of my victory and of my change. And my prayer today is that I continue on this path and overcome my sin. What do you need to overcome today? I pray that you find what is His will, and change your mind to align itself with God's word as well.

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