Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is--his good, pleasing and perfect will. (Romans 12:2 NIV)
Sometimes I do my best thinking when I'm trying to fall asleep or when I'm trying to wake up. I guess it's when my conscious thought is on break and my subconscious takes over. So my inhibitions and worries take a back seat to my truer self--the part of me that wears no mask. I had a hard time sleeping late last night/early this morning, so I kept waking, looking at the clock, and then falling back to sleep. But during that time, this verse came to mind, and I can't help but feel that it's a verse that I need to anchor myself to, embrace, and remind myself of frequently.
Unfortunately I've been too conformed to my eating patterns. I eat when I'm hungry, but it seems that I'm constantly hungry, even after I've just eaten. And because of this, I've ballooned up to a weight on the scale that I'd never seen before. I've been dieting and exercising, but I have difficulty sticking with it and as a result, I keep losing and gaining back the same ten pounds over and over again for the last year or so.
But I feel like I can see the bend in the road, and it's all because of this moment and this verse. I need to change my mind. Renew it and be transformed. It's the only way. But how? During this reflection on scripture, I determined that what I need to change my mind about is hunger. It's not as unpleasant a feeling as my eating pattern would make me believe. I need to embrace it as proof of my control and the conquering of my flesh.
Hunger's not so bad. It's a good thing. It's a sign of my victory and of my change. And my prayer today is that I continue on this path and overcome my sin. What do you need to overcome today? I pray that you find what is His will, and change your mind to align itself with God's word as well.
